Flora F. Amour’s blog

The beginning of films, a "new freedom" for women, Hollywood was begining to become "on the rage", and everyone wanted a "piece" of that fame.  Celebraties started to become popular, and magazines like PicturePlay, PhotoPlay among others, took noticed. Famous celebraties of that era where Mary Pickford, Gloria Swanson and Marie Prevost, just to name a few, but none of those actresses top my list of the glamorous and famous, except Alla Nazimova.

Born Mariam Edez Adelaida Leventon in 1879 to a dysfunctional-jewish family,  this actress/producer/writer and feminist, is a  fascination to study and learned her life.  Madame Nazimova (everyone call her Madame...), suffer alot during her childhood, teenage years, and adulthood, but she knew how to control her troubled mind, her discomforted soul, and she knew how to balanced them.  I became interested in this silent actress, when I bought the book The Sewing Circle: Sappho's leading ladies by Axel Madsen.  

Since she always used untrue facts about her past life (childhood and teenage years), the most that one reads about her is her sexuality. She was known in the silent era, for her lesbian-bisexual life style, which it was the best unkept secret in Hollywood. Even when I have two books and alot of information about her, I can't stop learning about this amazing woman...

Alla Nazimova (b.1879-d.1945)

                                  "...well darling, keep busy, and take an advice from an old woman,
find happiness inside of you, don't
relay on others..., is hard but I find it
to be rather true."

~this is my favorite quote from Nazimova,
from a letter to Mercedes de Acosta"~

Dear Lorelle:

       As you may had notice, I'm one of your co-workers in the "Upward-Bound" schooling program, I'm the English tutor.  We have been seeing each other at work for about a week now, but unfortunately, I will not be carrying out the occupation. I'm going to resigned my position as English tutor as quickly as possible, the reason of me quitting the job is of personal matters, in which the discussion of the happenings will take place in the managers office. By my observations, I believe that the program is of a dubious "nature". ...

       Even though, I probably won't see you at work, I would love to maintain a good friendship with you.  I've realized (through our conversations) that you are a woman of a respectful "nature", of wonderful qualities and, an admirable personality.   I've been told that you know my friend Christina. ...   Even if we don't have nothing in common, our relationship as friends could be one of mutual respect and consideration, in which we may share ideas and thoughts. ...

Cordially,
Your Friend...

PS: I hope in seeing you soon, don't hesitate in sending me letters by mail or email.

Having a romantic relationship, is hard, but maintaining it is even harder; regarless of gender or sexual preferences, looking for that "special" someone could be quite a "headache", and if you find that "special" person, keeping the relationship in harmony is more difficult.  Here are some tips, my friends have use in their relationships. 

• Always wait for your partner with a smile.
• Don't be grumpy with your partner.
  
• Try to understand your partners' point of view.
  
• Don't be so jealous and possessive.
  
• Try to  share differences and desires.
• Talk openly about any subject.
  
• Give your partner a gift that it should never forget
• Try to respect your partners' way of living.
• Assist your partner when it needs help.
  
• Don't be selfish and indifferent.
• Pampered each other.  

Although, this are good advices, they are relative; the advices may help some people, but not others, you can be the best lover, but your partner may not, thus being a disappointment.  Misfortune in romance is bound to come, it can happen to anyone; being depressed and in despair is not going to solved anything, love hurts, but loosing it and the hope to find someone to base oneself, is the worst; be happy, enjoy life and don't worry, that eventually everyone truly finds that "special" someone. 

Good day everyone, well at least mine didn't end-up good.  I'm quite busy, so I will be brief and to the point.  ... in work (I'm a tutor in English); after I arrived at 3:30 pm, I felt such anxiety..., I don't know what came over me, but I continued with my work.  ... we had a meeting with the coordinator of the tutoring program, he began explaining us (the tutors) our assignments and what he would be expecting of us.  Well, when he finished I began to asked him questions, and I was surprised when he said that we must grade the test of the kids. I believed that a tutor is there to help someone in a subject that they don't understand, not to be the teacher, so I was very disappointed and more distressed than when I arrived. 

...I arrived at home at 5:20 pm, I sat and the first thing that came to my mind was the word "quit", so that is what I'm going to do tomorrow. ...